I have changed, both as a person and as a soul. How I live has changed and what I believe had changed. And over the years since my last entry I have come to this conclusion. That what happened in that house happened to me for a reason. What that reason is, is yet to be shown. Perhaps those events were permitted to happen to me to thrust me into my purpose. Perhaps to test my endurance. Perhaps the hell I endured was permitted by God to show me that the spirit realm is indeed real. It is powerful and it is not to be toyed with even though I never really toyed with it. Yes, curiosity of the spirit realm would occasionally taunt me. Halloween parties with Ouija boards in the back room next to the bong, Madame Cleo beckoning me with her ridiculous claims, scary movies such as The Exorcist sparking questions that no one would answer.....yes, I was curious of the spirit realm. But I never toyed with it. Something inside me would allow me to dare take it lightly.
The suppression of my God given gifts was foolish. The reason for my suppressing those gifts was even more foolish, although I understand now that it was only the ignorance of my overzealous mother and the force fed teachings of the Christian church that influenced me to do so. I was discouraged from asking questions. All curiosity was clearly the work of the devil. But really....in all honesty, it was nothing more than the church's, my mother's and everyone else who discouraged me lack of understanding of the spirit realm, that caused them to be so adamant in their instruction. Had they understood and been more informed, perhaps I would've been prepared to handle the events in the house on Kendall Road. Who knows?
In the last couple of years, I've searched for even more answers. Not only about the spirit realm, but about spiritual gifts. How to control these gifts, how to help others with these gifts and finally how to help others develop their gifts. Because I believe that these gifts are bestowed upon us by God, I believe they have to be for a good reason. They are for His reason and for His purpose with the potential to help people and to do good. With this in mind, I've resolved to help people where spiritual matters are concerned. Whether they seek answers regarding their own gifts, or whether they're seeking advice in decision making, it is key to understand that a lot of what happens in our world is directly related to what is happening in the spirit realm. Knowing this empowers us to make informed decisions, not be so frightened, and not wonder why thing are happening to us. While I don't have all the answers, nor will I ever claim to, I can share what I know. And maybe, just maybe someone will not have to go through what I did. Maybe someone will become empowered and be able to not be afraid.
Because after all.......they do feed on fear.
God Bless & Namaste,